| blah blah blah ...this is my day..blah blah |
[Mar. 27th, 2005|05:43 pm] |
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| | the darknesss.a thing called love | ] |
well today is easter."happy easter:)".i got some candy yum.okay well. i talked to alan on the phone, then around noonish my dad came to pick me up then we went to my aunt patti's.that was boring.her kids were good till everyone came.eh..then we went back to his house for a bit. i cleaned out his truck and got a bunch of change.i wanted to go ride my four-wheeler but he wanted to go see the baby right then becuz he wants to be out of the hospital by 10 becuz he has to work in the morning but he didnt want to bring me:( gee what did i do to him..so i only spent like four hours with him...he didnt want me to stay but i wanted too..[confused look]well here i am writing and bored. i called alan a little while ago but hes not home duh mary hes at his grandmas.lol. mhmm so bored. maybe i should ask my mom if alan can come over mhmm [sneeky look] yeh i think i should here i go i am going to ask her lol.sorry bored.rrrr she pisses me off. i ask and she says if he does come over we cant go into my room.god i want to kill her. i was like im only 13 mom im not going to do shit like katy does. she like exactly..rr ahh...mhmm look on my face maybe i can have some "friends" come over..ahha lets ask eva now shall we..okay at this very moment i told her about the master plan. now im asking chris but the stupid fagget wont answer me haha..holy shit my mother said yes!!master plan is working..but all i have to do is ask my hunny bunny then everying will be a a okay..mhmm so excited.yes ahha.well i better go clean and see what eva is doing now so master plan shall work.
I love my wonderful alan<3 |
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| sunday morning. |
[Mar. 27th, 2005|10:09 am] |
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| | meow the kittens. thats all i can posibly hear. | ] |
last night alan and i were on the phone from like i think 10 to 2 in the morning.aww i love my alan so so so much<3i love talking to him. well today i have to go to my fathers for easter and i dont know what were doing there but i know that im not spending the night becuz he has to work in the morning so thats good. but i really dont like going to his house..its too boring.i dont hate him as much anymore though. so yeah. monday i want alan to come over.i hope he gets to come over..that means i have to clean my icky room again.lol. well i think im going to go and munch on some candy and be fat.
I love my wonderful Alan so so so so so so much<3 |
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| the moon is beautiful tonight just like you. |
[Mar. 26th, 2005|08:22 pm] |
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| |  bitchy | ] |
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| | i dont care about that-weezer(thats not the right song) | ] |
well today i went to my grandmas..pshh everytime i go there they make fun of the stupid home videos becuz theres one of me in them when i was three and i got this dress and yeah..then we went to the mall and i got this book..its dumb i suppose i prbably shouldnt of got it.oh well. then my mom got pissed becuz i wanted the book. it was only 5 dollars, but my sister got like a $100..rr she pisses me off thats why im in a crappy mood right now.rr.god i think i need to go drink some red bull right now to cool me off.i really want to punch something realy fucking badly....im freazing right now, whenever im pissed i start to get cold and i cant feel my fingers..oh well..well i suppose i should go calm my ass down.
I love my alan so so so so much<3 |
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| missing my alan |
[Mar. 25th, 2005|07:06 pm] |
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| |  sad | ] |
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| | nothing..just thinking about Alan | ] |
well today i woke up early went to the mall got my awesome shoes, and clothes.then came home talked to my alan<3...then after i got off the phone with him i gotten into a pissy sad mood. i wanted to talk to alan but then he came on the computer, then yeah.he mad me feel better. but im back in that sad mood though.because i watched this movie and its really sad and i cried so yeah.it just had me thinking, of bad bad bad things so yeah.well tomorrow i have to go to my grandmas and yeah. then i suppose were going to go back up to syracuse to go to the mall and yeah..maybe i can bring my alan!!or something because i truely want to do something with him because im missing him so much right now, and im sad. gee i have to stop watching all those sad movies you know. lol. and lifetime haha lol.man well i suppose i shall leave this be because i dont know.
I love my wonderful Alan<3your the only one who could ever make me feel this way<3 |
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| well.. |
[Mar. 25th, 2005|08:46 am] |
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| |  amused | ] |
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| | one hand in my pocket | ] |
WELL for the last couple of days have been quite fusterating. and i dont think i can even spell that word.haha.well i wont even talk about the OTHER day.how about yesterday well i went with my dad to go see the baby shes soo cute shes really tiny too because shes prematured and stuff.then i came home people got into a fight so i got in.and then oh big and bad nicolette just had to start. she said shit to alan so you know what i bitched and bitched at her the nshe must of a had a fucking dictionary right in front of her so she started to type words that i have never seen bfore.she is soo fucking stupid she thinks she soo smart so she will go and say stuff that dont even make any sence and say fucking huge ass words.well you know what nicolette you are the must one of the dumbest people on this face of this earth. so then i get on my other screen name and shes at alexis yeah the ugly crotch muncher.well she IMed me "hey bitch" okay who will say that thats soo fucking stupid! everybody uses BITCH god!. then im like "omg i dont want to talk to your ugly face" shes like well at least i can get better then alan, i was like yeah my ass HA no you cant you like the fucking red neck scumbag chris stevens.and i make fun of her ugly skanky self.god i hate her too death!ah well im not going to say anymore haha thats pretty funny. and one time when i bitching at alexis she called my fucking house at 1am! what the fuck is wrong with her she needs to get a life. then when she called like a zillion times, so i picked up the phone the firts time and CLICK. then the second time i screamed in the phone.the third time i told her to stop calling my fucking house its onee in the fucking morning.then the fourth time she was like why cant we just talk.i said well because i dont want to deal with your slutty ass. and yeah and it went on.lol. so that is it so im going to go and take a shower because later im going out to the mall.and so i shall wait for alan to call me because i dont want to call him and wake him up.
I love my alan so so so much! |
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| Save me |
[Mar. 23rd, 2005|05:22 pm] |
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| | unknown at this point | ] |
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| | powerman 5000 | ] |
Had a bad day, don't talk to me,
gonna ride this out,
My little black heart, breaks apart,
with your big mouth.
And I'm sick of my sickness
Dont touch me, you'll get this.
I'm useless, lazy, perverted,
and you hate me.
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call,
And everything, everything's my fault.
Went to the doctor, and I asked her,
to make this stop.(whoa)
Got medication, a new addiction,
Fucken thanks a lot.
Had to relapse, I'm outta rehab,
It ruined everything.(whoa)
So point your finger, at the singer,
He's in the pharmacy.
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call ,
and everything's my fault.
You can't save me,
You can't blame me,
Well I'm waiting here to take a fall,
and everything, and everthing's my fault.
And I'm a death threat haven't slept yet,
Baby wide awake at dawn.
Helmet bad boy, tell the tabloids,
everything's my fault.
Whoa whoa yeah, write it write it,
Whoa whoa yeah, write it write it,
Whoa Whoa everthing's my fault,
everthing's my fault.
I went to heaven, couldn't get it,
For what I had done.
I said forsake me, you said you're crazy
you had too much fun.
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call ,
and everything's my fault.
You can't save me,
You can't blame me,
Well I'm waiting here to take a fall,
and everything,everthing's my fault.
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
You can't save me,
You can't change me,(everthing's my fault)
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Everything's my fault.
mhmm well today was alright i suppose i still want to kill that fucking wigger kid!ah man he fucking pisses me off and he blocked me..alan doesnt want to me to talk to him but im soo pissed off im not just going to let him get away with it..ahh oh well..eva wanted me to go and talk to mrs.hart becuz i was soo pissed off today. ah man lol..lets not speak of it.friday my dad is taking me to go see my sister in syracus HEY i might be able to bitch at that wigger now eh..haha just kidding.well i suppose i shall go..
-i love my alan so much<3- |
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| Haha this little girl on the bus called me pretty.lol. |
[Mar. 21st, 2005|04:38 pm] |
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| |  crazy | ] |
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| | no music | ] |
Well..yesturday i was at evas'.i was there till like 1-2.then my mom came and picked me up and told me my dad was in the hospital.i was all worried because it wasnt about the baby. my dad fell at where he is working( he like is kinda owning the old papermill in owsego that is shut-down and he and five guys are cleaning it out)well he was by himself there, and he fell almost two stories onto the CEMENT floor.I went there with him last weekend and that place is ah all dirty and falling apart theirs machines, glass, ice, and uh its soo disgusting too.and he never ever goes to the hospital unless he thinks he did something extremly bad because he never goes to the doctors or does anything with them he hates them.so my mom took me there to go see him and he wasnt there so i called his cell phone left a message.he called back around fourish.he was up to go see his baby.and he told me what happen and that he busted his nose got stiches. and omg i was soo scared that he could off killed himself, because he was by himself and whoa he was lucky. so then he said that i need to get these forms filled out and a tag to go see my (half) baby sister. i mean i need to show some interest in it because my dad feels bad enough and i just feel like the biggest asshole in the world. and nobody know the whole story to that one.so that was yesturday.
:TODAY:lets se i went to school.-social studies boring.test next class:(.-science eh i wasnt tired lol but boring.-gym was fun man i had a lot of energy i probably could of ran like a zillion miles(not really)-lunch i got to see my alan<3.-spanish we watch a sweet15 movie it was...interesting?lol.-A.i.s which i thought it was cancelled but it wasnt that wasnt too bad but its soo easy!-and no i did not go to colorguard becuz why? i dont want to be known as something that is not true hannibal has a bad repretation for the colorgaurd and yeah.-and now the bus wasnt as bad as it usually is once i got on all these little girls are like "your soo pretty."i was like omg.lol, and the high schoolers were making fun of the little kids that are assholes and stuff it was funny.and yeah.
now i am home on the computer talking to eva and serena. And i am waiting for my hunny bunny to call.
i shall leave this beast be for now.
I love my Alan so so so much<3!!
If I had one life to live,
I'd spend it all with you.
Our time together is precious,
I know that much is true.
For when we hold hands,
My love for you doesn't go blue.
If I had one life to live,
I'd spend it all with you.
You are my life,
And I LOVE YOU! |
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| well well well...:) |
[Mar. 20th, 2005|11:39 am] |
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| |  I love my Alan<3 | ] |
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| | im just a girl.-no doubt you and me used together | ] |
yesturday was also another FUN day:)okay were shall I start. well first i am at evas and we went to the mall and went cha cha shopping.tehe.and we made a quick stop at eckards hahaha cant tell you that one. then we came back home and Alan<3 called evas cell.then eva and i had this mayjor plan having alan and blah chrisblah over. and guess what THEY CAME OVER!!!YAY and omg that was some fun;)wink wink.i hope maybe this weekend alan may posibably come over to my house;)or we can go to his house or something..awwhhww. ...i miss my alan *shniif shniff*mhmm and now today i am still at evas and talking to alan.and so i will go and chill and talk to my fellow friends and my alan<3and wait for my mother to come here.
I love my wonderful Alan<3so so so so much!!we have to do that again;) |
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| aww.I love my wonderful alan |
[Mar. 19th, 2005|02:39 pm] |
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| | good | ] |
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| | go go shorty | ] |
well right now i am at evas and were chilling around.Yeaturday was the best of all!!;).well yesturday chria alan and i went to evas house and had fun;).then we went for a walk and oh my goah lol well this is pretty funny, when we were walking these scummy people that we dont like were walking and we were saying shit to them it was funny then when we came from across the from this josh kids house he got his old lady neighbor at us screaming "which one of yous hit joshy??!!!" it was funny i was like what the hell. so i started bitching at her i was like "dude we didnt do shit to anyone we were just walking!"so then she gets into my face then into alans face then i bitched at her and shes like "you know what you need to fucking shut up you little bitch" then i was saying stupid really funny shit to her and being a smart ass to her then shes like "your going to hell bitch, you need to go to church, you made me say the f word" i was like "okay i'll go to hell" then evas like "you guys lets just go" and shes like "yeah thats is what you should do" then i got back in her face. then we walked away.i was going to go back and bitch her out again but alan didnt want me to..i feel bad for bitching at someone in front of alan. but omg this women she had these ememen headphones and shit and she was two inches away from alan and my face. i want to kill that bitch.so then we walked back then we saw the scumbags again and we were thinking that the old women was with them too but she wasnt so we sat in the rode waiting for them then matts dad came and hes like who punched who and i was like not this again. so we "talked" to his dad about it we got into another argument but hey that was funny then yeah.so then after that we went inside alan and i had LOTS of fine;)wink wink.we serously have to do that again.last night was the funnest night EVER.so after our FUN we went to the movies and watched the ring two. that movie was jumpy!lol. i was like on top of alan.lol. then these girls were laughing and talking really loud so i was like "SHUT THE FUCK UP" you know its not a place to go and talk really loud at becuz we wanted to watch the movie. so they're like "ts only the previews god."i was like "od im trying to make-out with my boyfriend without hearing your skanky voices"so chris threw stuff at them they moved and we contiuned to throw stuff at them it was funny.then they told on us and there was a guy who was watching us for like ten minutes.lol.but i didnt notice till eva and chris told me lol.then we came back fist thing alan and i did was right to the bed;).aww that was wonderful then after about two hours they both left:(mhmm i miss my alan and eva missses her chris:(mhmm well alan made me "keep" his coat so i am wearing it right now:).
TODAY-eva and i went to the mall she spent her b-day money and i just but orignal things;).lol eckards that was funny.and these handcuffs that i have on now tahahaha.well eva and i are waiting for alan to call back becuz we want alan and chris to come back over;)i hope they can...i hope he calls back!lol.well i shall leave this beast be.
I love my wonderful alan!!! |
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| ITS A GIRL! |
[Mar. 17th, 2005|05:36 pm] |
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| |  okay | ] |
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| | unwitten law-save me | ] |
well in the MORNING at 5:30, my dad called and asked me "are you awake yet?" i was like "NO!" hes like well "jen had her baby at 9:30 last night." i was like "what??!!" then hes like "yeah, the baby was 2 months early and so its prematured and it almost died and so now her and the baby are up in syracus and its a girl."...well look who has a half-sister..:/..well today was so bad lol.wow god i cant believe my dad, i know you all are going to think im freaken dumb but no one understands why.. and no i am not going to explain it.okay wel i am hungry..oh well mhmm..today what happened today..the day wasnt so bad we had colorguard practice and it wasnt so bad but i was in the spot light because i suck haha but at the end i wasnt too bad i got most of the stuff we did in my head but now their gone but oh well im going to suck at it any how.rr i have to go to my aunts house tonight at 6:30 god i dont want to go there at all..stupid candle parties my mom is making me go..so i cant talk on the phone with alan tonight:(ill call him from there anyways.tehe.well i told you about my day.so now i am going to leave this beast alone and look for an icon.
I love my alan so so so so so much |
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| blah blah blah.. |
[Mar. 16th, 2005|05:14 pm] |
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| | wonderful | ] |
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| | christy yelling at the dog and my chamical romance | ] |
mhmm today i woke up right out of bed all happy.thats funny because im usually like dont fuck with me right now, but i was all happy..and im still happy.lol..today was a pretty good day but i got really tired in english because i hate english to death!lol.oh yeah i get to go to colorgaurd tomorrow yay this is going to be fun:)lol catherine and i shall have fun this summer:)lol.and i cannot miss one day if i do someone gets to slap me really hard lol.oh yeah and i have to remind myself to not say anything bad about myself..lol katy and christy are naming the kittens lol.the orange one is llyod from dumb and dumber.lol.now christy is feeding the fish..well she is on crack. awwwh i want another wonderful day.maybe friday:)yay evas b-day is this weekend i cant wait.lol.chris alan and i are suppose to be going there.i hope my alan goes<3man my sister isnt nice.lol.well i have nothing else to say but if i wanted to i would right i love alan over and over and over agian.
I love my wonderful alan so much! |
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| <3WONDERFUL<3 |
[Mar. 15th, 2005|08:05 pm] |
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| | happy | ] |
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| | behind blue eyes. | ] |
today i went to alans<3.that was super;)we got to do that again hun.today was wonderful!:)Eva haha your "cousin" likes you hahaha im just kidding.lol...god gym was dumb eva and i have a "friend" in there and we call him "guy" lol but i was like "hey guy what is going on, havent spoken to you in a while." hes like "my name isnt guy, its mike shela calls me mike!"i was like "okay GUY" it was funny then nicolette tried to kill me and someone grabed me too that wasnt so pleasent...im in such a wonderful mood today.thats good.well i have nothing else to talk about because im not going to discusse what alan and i did.wink wink .j.k.;)
I love Alan so so so so much<3!!!! |
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| mhm |
[Mar. 14th, 2005|04:07 pm] |
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| |  tired | ] |
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| | a whole bunch of punk music | ] |
well today was okay then i dont know it just went down the drain at the end i dont know why.i just suppose im a moopy person thats what i have been.well yesturday i had to go over to my dads house but i had to wake up at 7 in the morning just to go over there...well we went to this paper mill in oswego that he is cleaning out for about over an hour and he took down a bunch or signs for me. eh it wasnt so bad then we went to this nasty resteront.blah that was sick.then we went home.watched the race for a bit..then i went snowmobling forever and then i had to help him fix his truck...then him and i went out of the trails. and he let me drive his good snowmoble. that beast has master speed!but then he made me switch so that was alright mine isnt as good as his.then we went home finish watching the race. then we did something else then he took me home..then i was in the grumpest moods ever!lol..as eva says it the funny bitchy-mood.lol.then eva called then alan<3called.
today?eh i dont know wasnt too bad the only greatest thing was that i got to see my alan<3 well i suppose i shall go.
I love Alan so so so so so much!! |
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| hahaha today was great. |
[Mar. 13th, 2005|12:29 am] |
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| | giggly | ] |
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| | adam sandler stuff. | ] |
i woke at 10:30ish.Alan called<3 i gotten on the computer.Called my father he didnt answer so now i have to go to his house tomorrow yippy skippy for me.then katy called we picked her up from jake's.went to arburn.went to this crazy store gotten the most coolest dress in the world and guess what it fits me:)eh im not too fat after all:).then we went to the finger lakes mall.we went to this cheap store like everything was $5.98.that was super baught myself a pair of pants and a stupid shirt.then we went to pizza hut made katy and i made fun of my mom.that was great. after that we went back home.wore my dress for a few.then katy wanted to go to the movies tonight so she was bugging alan for him to go but he couldnt go.so katy and i had a "sister time" together.lol.she cut my hair...it looks quite interesting its not that ugly.then around 9ish jake came over we went to the movies to see "hostage".before the movie started katy saw travis hafiner and billy.?.and she thought billy was nick so she told jake so jake went down there and idk then katy went down there to talk or whatever jake came back up and was like "god shes flirting with those guys!".so i went down there to get katy then ah we went out they got in a fight jake went in the guys bathroom katy fallowed into there.so travis hold the door shut so katy wouldnt be able to get out and billy was going to get someone who worked there so katy would get into trouble but they didnt so jake went to get out he couldnt becuz travis was holding the door shut so he was pulling it and i was like "travis your going to get your ass fucking kicked!" but no he doesnt listen to me.so jake ripped open the door got into travis face "you mother-fuckers dont know who your fucking with bitches" i was like woaa. then katy was trying to get jake away but noo jake doesnt listen.he just bitched and bitched.so i was like mhmm theres going to be a fight do i go into the theatre or stay with katy or just watch?lol well i stayed.travis was there rubbing his nipples that was funnyy so i was cracking up laughing.then no fight it ended there but jake was pissed.he went back into the movie we fallowed him after ten minutes.HEY the movie wasnt so bad hahaha wow what a NIGHT!lol.so then they dropped me off here and i went to check if alan or eva were on but NOO neither of them are on...gee i need to find some friends huh?hanging out with my sister and her boyfriend for the rest of my life hahah im such a loser!well i guess i shall go since i cant tell anybody my story.
I love my Alan so much |
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| today was dumb. |
[Mar. 11th, 2005|10:14 pm] |
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| | blah | ] |
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| | slow song-senses fail | ] |
well today i woke up ate mac-n-cheese at 10.30 in the morning.talked to alan on the phone.then my aunt and her rotten childern came over omg i was going to KILL them.then mom and i went to oswego went to "friendlys" god i hate that place!then wal-marts idk what we did there. then we were making fun of people and yeah..wasnt so bad lol well usually its like ah i hate her but idk..ahh.i rented a few movies i watched half of little black book. ill finish that later on life.then yeah.now im talking to alan and eva on the computer.so i suppose i shall go and leave this be.:/
I love Alan so so so so so much<3!!! |
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| mhmm... |
[Mar. 10th, 2005|10:00 pm] |
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| | good | ] |
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| | uses of the word fuck-adam sandler | ] |
well to day wasnt soo bad lol.i didnt want to get up. my sister and i were going to skip school and go to oswego or the mall for the dy but my mom found out and made me go but not my sister. rroh well.lets see..mhmm...yesturday i didnt write becuz i was moopy.but im over the moopyness becuz alan and i talked and made me feel a lot better.i love my alan<3!god their is soo much drama going on.lol catherien serena and lisa are in a fight i guess.catherine thinks im writing in lisa's journal and i dont understand why shes blaming me just becuz i did that one time doesnt mean shit you know?.i really thought it was her becuz it sounded like her but anyways fuck that im not getting into that lol.well zebra today i was going to say shit to him but i didnt bother with him.my aunt shelly came over..i dont know why she never does becuz she doesnt like me becuz im a bad influence on hannah...mhmm okay i dont do anything lol.then i talked to my wonderful alan on the phone<3!!and now someone has writen crap in eva's journal and watch once i put this in someone is going to write in mine. i will laugh my ass off..yawn..tehe doctoer phil is back in the game:)lol i like being a dr.phil its fun.im just that kind of person that likes to help:).mhmm well i dont know what else to say so ill leave these beast be.
I love my wonderful Alan<3!!!!! |
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| moopy..eh |
[Mar. 8th, 2005|07:03 pm] |
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| | crappy | ] |
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| | dance the night away.. | ] |
well today i suppose it was okay..zach(zebra)is soo afriad its funning.but now im really going to get into his face his pissing me off soo fuckin much.i hope that kid gets hit by a car..i know thats mean but hes pissing me off...and now im worried about catherine. i feel like a shithead now.oh well im a bitch i cant fix the past you know?..i think im fixing some of them like week by week because i think laurel and i might just be friends at some point of life now.but yeah ...i dont think i can fix anything else though..i truely wish i could..and now im all moopy for some reason. i know the reason but my reasons are dumb.mhmm ah tomorrow shall be fun.gee i try to write a poem but my poems dont make sense at all.lol.ahh im like all moopy.ah man i have a wicked bad jealously problem lol. god im dumb.no what im good at is helping people. im good at that....(dr.phil moments starlite)lol sorry dont know where that came from..god i hate it when im a bitch i fuck a whole lot of things up. lol catherine and i in gym are going to make a golf team. well try to. i think that would be soo fun and soo cool.yes i know im the biggest loser ever....ahh all i want to do is to kill that fagget zach right now.he said that eva was my only friend..okay well first of all i know im not popular and second of all i know i dont have that many friends. but eva is my best friend shes not the only friend i have god.im sick of people saying that.gee i know im a loser!well im going to go and be a moopy loser and MOOP around the house.
I love my alan so so so so much!!<3!! |
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| well |
[Mar. 7th, 2005|09:09 pm] |
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| | bored | ] |
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mhmm what has happened today?..tech..uh i fucked up my clock haha lol.oh well..home and carees was boring. math was easy.lunch i saw my alan<3.english was SLEEPY i hate english.cough ahh god.ais was easy. we didnt do too much at all.then i waited for my bus with alan<3then i came home..i dont know whati did then becuz i have like this short term memorie lost.nah just kidding.well also im fat. yes indeed. i hope i lose "aboot" 10 pounds before summer or spring i think i can posibably do that becuz i lost over 15 pounds already...oh well im not a super modile here..mhmm i am home alone my mom went over to my aunts house. christy my sister's friend wrote a STUPID thing in my guestbook. god shes a crackhead!HAHA!...hmm im soo bored.eva wants chris, alan, and i to go over to her house on thursdat and yeah.that would be quite interesting.mhm well..maybe ill go and download some more music.yeah ill go do that maybe i can get that billy idol song that is stuck in my head out of my head!
Alan I love you so much hunny |
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| mhmm a poem eh? |
[Mar. 7th, 2005|07:53 pm] |
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She looks in to the mirror everyday
and trues to put on her most convincing face...
the one that will fool the world
of the was she's really feeling.
Inside she's screaming,
and crying,
hurting
and bleeding...
and no one can see it.
She's laughing,
she's smiling,
but no one cares to look into her eyes
and see the life she's really living,
and what it's like.
She stays inside her mind,
and wonder how perfect, and happy
she could of been...
If she was someone else
She puts on her smile,
to cover up the wounds in whick she is bleeding.
Trying to convince herself,
that her like is one worth living
^well yes indeed this is very...depressiing?..but i just thought it was interesting so i put it in here. |
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